UPDATE ON DOING MINISTRY AT COLLEGE + MY RELATIONSHIP W/ THE LORD
Hi, my lovely friends!! As always, life is crazy busy with college and I miss writing blogs so much but it is such a joy each time I get the chance to write one! In this post, I want to give you all a life update and honestly just share the Lord’s faithfulness. The Lord is always teaching us amazing things and I just love sharing what He is doing and being honest with you guys where I am, in my walk with the Lord!
WHAT GOD HAS DONE THIS SEMESTER AT COLLEGE
This is so crazy for me to say, but I am halfway done with my junior year of COLLEGE! This is a HUGE testament to God and His faithfulness. Being honest with you guys this semester has been the most challenging than the other semesters. For the most part, it has been challenging academically, and with of course being in many of my major courses, since I am a junior, makes sense that it is academically hard. For the other parts of it, there were just many personal struggles that I was facing and A LOT of adapting to many new things.
The Lord lovingly gave me the opportunity to be in student leadership again at my school where I get to serve Him, serve those around me, and minister to make Him known. To be very honest with you guys, doing student leadership this year was a lot more difficult than it was for me last year. It was a lot more difficult than I anticipated it to be and a transition that was personally hard for me in being in a new leadership role on a completely new hall on a new side of campus I have not lived on before (so a lot of adapting). I felt that I did not know what I was doing, I kept making mistakes and felt like giving up. I even got to points of unfortunately believing that God made a mistake in choosing me for this role and that I was not qualified enough (it was so hard for me to write that). God used this all as a way for me to abide (rely or depend) on Him. Hear me out, God does not make mistakes and He uses imperfect people like us for His glory.
During this time, I was reminded of 2 Timothy 3:16-17 which says “All Scripture is inspired by God and is profitable for teaching, for rebuking, for correcting, for training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be complete, equipped for every good work”. Through this verse, I am reminded that God’s Word is true and God is true. So, from this, I know that His Word is beneficial and useful and that there is no error in it. Secondly, I am reminded that through this, God has equipped us for every good work. This encouraged me in times of feeling that I was not qualified enough to do the role God had given to me or that God did not call me. Something else that was emphasized to me is that ministry is not easy, but it is worth it because it impacts God’s Kingdom in amazing ways that we might not be seeing in the moment. Just because ministry is not easy does not mean we should give up and I have seen God’s faithfulness in how He strengthened and empowered me to do this ministry for His glory this semester. Though I am not expecting it to be easy as I am continuing the role for next semester, I can know and trust that the Lord is going to do such great work and that it is worth doing because it is for Him and His glory.
Starting a new section since the last one is a bit long.. haha. But I wanted to share how everything I shared above reminds me of how God called Moses in Exodus. I am currently reading Exodus and there are definitely A LOT of things that I am learning. In Exodus 3, we see the story of Moses and the burning bush and how God called out to Moses from the bush (Exodus 3:4). We later see that God is calling Moses to go to Pharaoh to help lead the Israelites out of Egypt since the Israelites had been under slavery under Pharaoh who was refusing to let them go. Moses made an excuse that he was not eloquent enough and that his speech was sluggish (Exodus 4:10) or how he asked the Lord why did He ever send him (Exodus 5:22). We see that Moses struggled with unbelief and not focusing on God which really really convicted me.
I felt the same way as I stepped into ministry at my school again this year and I struggled with questioning God with, “But who am I that I should be doing this?”, “God, I am not qualified enough”. The problem is our lack of focus on God and focusing too much on ourselves and this is something I really need and want to work on with the Lord. It is the Lord, who has authority, who calls us to do what He has called us to do (read again if needed haha). If He is telling us to do something, He will 100% equip us for whatever it is. Ephesians 2:10 says, “We are God’s workmanship created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared ahead of time for us to do”. God preparing ahead of time good works for us to do, means that He has definitely prepared and equipped us. God will 100% use everything for His glory, our strengths, our weaknesses, our mistakes, our shortcomings. We need to continue to fix our eyes on our treasure, Jesus! It is all about Him and always will be. Thank you, Jesus.
HOW MY RELATIONSHIP WITH THE LORD HAS BEEN
My relationship with the Lord is doing much better now that I am on Christmas break vs. during the school year. Something that I have been struggling with recently is being easily distracted by busyness when I am at school. There is some much on my plate and so much to get done, that I have gotten distracted and am not focusing on the Lord as much as I want to. I am so glad that I have been able to spend time in God’s Word and with Him during school, but as the days go on whenever I am fulfilling my responsibilities, I usually feel that I ended the day distracted. When I was distracted, I felt that I was not honoring God properly in my actions and thoughts. Christmas break is usually my favorite, not only because I get to be away from school, but that I get to be with the Father. I want to continue to find ways to keep faithfully spending time with God during school and busyness. I want to keep surrendering to Jesus daily, honoring the Lord in everything, and be focused on Him.
Okay, friends!! That was an honest update about where I am at, what the Lord is continuing to teach me about ministry, and a little update about my relationship with the Lord. I am very so grateful to God. He is truly faithful and I see His faithfulness every day in every moment. It is not easy being a follower of Jesus and there are struggles but it is so worth it because, in the end, we will be in glory celebrating, being with Him in His presence forever! What an amazing gift that is. I love you guys but God loves you so much more!! More blogs may hopefully come in the future as life is so currently busy, but it is such a blessing each time I get to write something for you guys!!
Love Bea ♡
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